LONESOME

i used to like being alone,
it excites me,
it gives me a real peace of mind,
and being alone was like a gift to me,
how much all that changed since you..

i never really felt it since for the past few days,
u were not here with me,
how alone i am,
right now at this very damn moment..

and i realise after a very long time,
loneliness can kill..

i hate being alone,
and thats not just a statement,
its my heart's cry,
which im sure you would have heard,
as my heart is in you sweetheart...

i hate sitting at the cafeteria alone,
i hate eating there alone,
i hate it when someone stare at me,
i hate it when someone ask me if the chair next to me is empty,
i hate it when i have to stare at my food the whole time i eat,
why? because i have no reason to look up,
i hate it when tears play hide and seek through my eyes,
because it gives a bitter taste to the food im eating,
funny to say, but i hate it to feel hungry when you're not with me...

i wish i didn have to disturb you like how i did,
i know you're away and you're with your family,
i am very sorry for that,
but i just needed to know there is someone for me and im not alone...

i wish im more independent,
but more than that,
i wish im never hungry without you,
i wish im never bored without you,
i wish i never have to do anything without you,
even better,
i wish im never alive wihout you...
because eventually the lonneliness will kill me...<3